...i just can't find the words

You're the God of this City
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You are 

Who knew blogging would be so hard.

But really. I use to think that I liked words and writing but now I’m not so sure. I want desperately to find words for everything that has entered my heart in the past 180 hours. I think in my struggle of wanting the perfect sentence or post that helps you understand what is happening in Thailand is showing me much about God. God is bigger than my blog post. Feel free to laugh. But it has been a battle on how to remember and process this trip...and it is only day four. There is no way to describe what God is doing. I am seeing more now than ever that every second of my life has been transforming me for these days in Thailand. Even the time here is changing and molding me into the women God envisioned when He knitted me together. 

I pray that your heart is encouraged as you read and that the Holy Spirit would help you rejoice in what is happening here.

First I love the ccp team. We haven’t had much team time but everyone is so encouraging. I love the stories (often hilarious) when we come back the the dorm after time with some of the Thai’s. It is a privilege that we are together in this. It blows my mind that the Lord designed this team in such a unique way. I can’t wait to keep learning from my brothers and sisters. Second the Thai christians are the most encouraging people I have ever met. Their passion for the Lord and love for Christ brings tears to my eyes. I am overwhelmed that I get to spend this summer alongside them. They understand the darkness of this country and have faith that God will bring light to Thailand. From death to life, their testimonies are powerful and beautiful. It is such a blessing to see the Thai christians and their heart for all nations to know Christ. They understand giving their life away. 

Sunday in worship we sang the same songs, they sang in thai and we sang in english. I get chills thinking about it. My heart will treasure that moment forever. Pretty positive most of the team has blogged about those minutes of worship. In a book I read before this trip it said “God is most glorified when we are most satisfied in Him.” Sunday, we were satisfied, He was glorified. God’s glory...would be the only words. Third ministry in Thailand is not what I thought....well honestly I have no idea what I thought it would be like. It has been exciting, exhausting, and intentional to the extreme. our focus is meeting the freshman (10,000 this year). Yeaaa. 

 Fourth the language. We are horrible at thai. They are patient, praise Jesus. 

In these first few days it has been an adjustment. Again I don’t know how to tell you all that is happing. I am blessed to be here, struggling, seeing sin, fighting it all while learning and sharing about the authority of Christ. Please pray for our team as we continue to minister. Pray that we would fix our eyes on Jesus, that we would count everything as lost besides knowing Him. Pray for health and a Thai meal we can stomach. 

learning how to love you,

Kathryn

I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back. Philippines 3:12-14